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My dear mamma uses this phrase my whole life when I try to explain why I did something she did not agree. It says, "Fine words do not feed cats." She used another often "Breve orazione penetra!" which says "God listens to short prayers." I repeat these for you today because I changed my name and I do not think it requires a long explanation. Most of all, my old name was used as a way to ease into this EP world more anonymous. Now, as I bring myself toward being more open, I slightly expose myself in an intentional way. I do not want to flourish the reasons with creative words and expressions and I do not want to write all night explaining. I just think this name more expresses my inner and outer personna while acknologing that I am Italiana.
Thank you for being my friend.

Today is near its end and I have been with positive persons who lift me and support me. So I have no complaints. I am but a vessel and I have been filled to my brim and made available for the weary to drink of me. The love flows from me in unbalanced ways that I can not always understand myself. I do not want to be empty, and I do not want to be consumed by the selfish and indulgent. So I have found new ways to spill my self upon those who are wanting of me without staining others who do not like my taste. I know that my life has not always been positive but lately I have done many positive things and I am working hard to turn my life into a better direction.
For a year now, I have found an outlet for me to express myself as never before. I have a brain, I have a voice, I have an opinion, I have a heart, I have a spirit and I have love. So much love. And now I am able to share those things with a few of you. Those who are unselfish to listen and feel and experience this life with me and allow me to do the same with their life. Am I so different from you? When you read my words, are my thoughts so radical and my mind so lofty than no one can understand me? I hope this is not true because the words I read of you are felt by me and move me to know you.
Yes, I am vulnerable, I can be emotional and feel insignificant and insecure, I can be a drama queen. But, those words do not define me. They are but a drop of the liquid in my cup. And when you drink of me, you may also consume drops of inspiration for my stuggles and my accomplishments. You may sip of my heart and taste the blood of my pain and taste the nuances of fight and determination, the sweetness of my family and the saltiness of my wounds just as you did last night. I do not want you to pity me. I want you to know me.
Now, when I count to three, everybody sing…Kumbaya…LOL kisses everyone.

Tonight I feel not so good. I was recognized in public tonight and the lady who had a young daughter with her shielded her daughter from me like I was a leper.  I noticed it very quickly and I wondered why this person was afraid. Then it happened…she called out to me, “Una lurida puttana!”

I do not want to dignify those words in translation because my language is supposed to be a romantic and sensual language not the language of ogres’. All I can say is that I quickly turned around with my sister and we walked the other direction as I cried. I cry most of all for my poor sister who did nothing wrong but to accompany me on a walk to a ristorante.

The most sad thing of all is that the woman was right about me. She was only protecting her child because her perception was that I was a bad person. In her subjective eyes, I was evil. Maybe I am evil. Maybe I am terrible. Maybe I have unknowingly broken marriages and destroyed lives and men’s futures with the availability of my body for the powerful and sexy Euro. As I collect my trophies and gifts and investments, others have lost everything.

The life I have lived is very difficult. Even when I choose another direction, it is never more than a click or an insult or a proposition away. Please remember this, that when you read my rants, know that I am venting for my own relief. Please do not think that I could ever be a role model for others because I am so very far away from that. Do not listen to my advice and do not take my thoughts serious because they are tainted with the greed and filth of a life lived in depravity.

I hope that one day I can redeem myself and my character through good works. I really want to be loved and respected. I just chose a selfish path. I try so hard to live differently but my past beckons me to indulge and flirt and avail myself to the urges of others. Why must I love men so much? Why must I disrespect myself so much? One minute I am restrained and proper and the next I am like the rubbish on a sidewalk blowing by.

I guess I should thank that ogre bitch for her reminder that I have work yet to do. I hope that my sister can forgive me for her embarrassment and she will not be mad because we ate spaghetti tonight instead of the fine meal I had planned. And most importantly, please learn from my mistakes. If you are a young and attractive gender variant person and are gifted with the beauty to attract, please do not follow my steps. There are so many other ways to earn money than to do it as I did it.

Last night I very much enjoy a wonderful meal at Nobu with my sister and a new friend who joined us, a guest of my company. We sat upstairs because we do not smoke and we were very impressed with the décor as well the food. The crowd was very stylish and Matsuhisa was very kind to welcome us personally. If you make it to Milano and you love sushi, please try. It is in the building with the Armani Hotel Via Pisoni 1.

I have dined in many Nobu all over the world; London, L.A., Miami, Tokyo, Waikiki, Budapest, but Milano is by far the very best I know.

The guest was very pleasant to talk to and he held my attentions all night with his humor and good looks. Elison was tempted to take him as a pet home but in the end she practiced much restraint, lol.

Today is a little weird for me. I do not have a good English word for it; in Italiano I would say the word “malinconia” which is more a feeling that is sad but also numb. Many of us, especially those who share a common experience with our gender, are especially numb and sad today because we lost a person who represented a certain side of all of us. She was the feisty and the sexy and the spirited girl that resides deep inside all our souls and spirits. Not just the visible femininity we all aspire for because she too was this, but also the spunk and the in-your-face “…I am a girl…get over it…” kind of attitude that many wish we had ourselves.
While some will say that I have long achieved my goals, I will honestly tell them that I have not. While I have lived as I have chosen and desired to live for many years, there are things in my life I have not yet achieved for myself and there are parts of my personality, not developed as I would like them to be. None of us are ever whole I believe. None ever truly reach the full potential of their imaginations. But that does not and should not keep us from our attempts as many can be far more than they themselves believe they can be if they just make the efforts to try.
My true personality is a little shy. Insecure about my looks, constant is my need for attention and approval such that I sacrificed a grande and important part of my young life in devotion of the approval of men. A journey than can never be ended in the way I traveled because men are as different as the colors of the rainbow. One finds things out about others and about themselves when they thrust themselves into a fire, especially where sex is the lure.
What we find is that sex is personal and it is selfish. It is the nature of sex because we all love different things to get our fires burning inside. If a person is in need of something to get him off and his lover is not willing to do or be those things, then the person will find it somewhere else. This is selfish, yes, this is personal, yes, this is a human’s nature, no? Some will love us as is, some will love us if we change. We find in time that because every other person is selfish this way, then so shall we be if we ever want happiness. My need for happiness requires that I live my life as a woman, not in the body I was provided by nature, but the body I shape and mold into what my mind requires in order to feel happiness.
I learn that everyone is molding their minds and bodies this way. Everyone. We are either shaping or molding to the expectations of another, or we are doing it for ourselves. This is true I believe of everyone. The wife is wanting you thinner, bolder, hair different, nicer, with beard, without beard, cleaner…the husband want you thinner, prettier, better lingerie, sexy clothes, nicer, better housekeeper…
The question I present, how hard will the efforts you make to change yourself in the image best suited for another before you recognize that you have a need to make some changes for yourself that are important for your own self identity? Will you do something, anything, just for you? Yes, this is selfish attitude, but the reverse is selfish attitude of the partner, no?
I never meet our Sue. I know little about her real life. But what I know is the thoughts and that attitude and the persona she presented to me and others on EP. I choose to believe that this was the real Sue because this is how she wanted to be perceived. Maybe in real life, she was shy like me. But here, she was many things I wish for myself. An grande example of the what is missing in my own personality.
I am sure that she was many different things to many different people. For me, I will do my best to be more secure in myself. To better express my scorn for the mean spirits of others who tread on my world and the choices I make to better match my insides to my outsides, to laugh more, to experience life more, to enjoy what nature and God has given me, not complain of what I was not given. I want to relax more and begin to enjoy this journey, not as much for the enjoyment of others but for myself.
I spend much of my time entertaining everyone around me. I want now to be entertained myself, to love and be loved; to be and to be admired for just being. I have long tried to conceal many things about myself, an effort to hide behind the realities of a tortured but expressive spirit. This I feel ashamed for. This I walk away from. This, I try to remedy for myself and for others.
Tomorrow I return to my home in the states, my life partner, my love, my life, my dear cani friends, my everything. Today, I say goodbye to my sister, my companion, my twin of spirit and soul. She leave this afternoon for her home in Terni and her husband who has his birthday. So…this word “malinconia”, can you feel it?

I have failed to keep my blog going like I wanted to while away. Is not my intention to let it slip away, only I have been too busy to keep updating while on this trip. I will be leaving here on Wednesday back to the states, then off to Hawaii on Saturday for my birthday vacation with my partner. I am so looking forward to relaxing on the beaches of Hawaii with no schedule, no pictures, no deadline, no expectation… only relax and fun times. This time, I get to bring my trio of cani companions. We book place to accommodate them since no one will be home to care for them and I miss them so.

Only I must return to Roma in January for more of same. I cancel December trip because I want to meet with Doctors in California for future changes to the one who admires you most on the body part most admired by those who seek the erotic girls of variation. I title I wish to pass to another after surgery. I hope if everything is positive, I will make the decision to move ahead in maybe less than a year. We will see how the interviews develop.

Many of you know I have been spending my time in the company of my lovely sister Elison. She has been a most gracious and hysterically comedic companion for me. Her husband is sweating and aching playing sports while we have been in a marathon of pictures and meetings and hand shaking and cheek kissing. His team lose yesterday 2-1 so Elison is not in great mood today,  Waaawaaawaaa…lol. You can give the bad sport some grief today if you like. She can handle. Also, is his birthday today so she wish she was there.

Well, at least my work is done; we can relax for a few days and enjoy the company we share. I hope to have a little more time, on and off through the days.

Ciao’

My mamma always said to me, "La vita è il regalo che noi otteniamo da Dio, la Vita di città è un regalo che noi ci diamo." These are simple words that say “Life is the gift of God, living is the gift from yourself.” They are simple but they were powerful for me because she was telling me that I can be what I dream to be but I have to love myself enough to gift them to me. I am only one who can do this.
I only say these things today because I want you to love yourself today. No life is perfect, certainly my life is not a perfect life. But with all my struggles in life, I never cheated myself out of my biggest dream. I always make the time and give the energy to push and mold and create the image that God did not provide for me. He give me life, I give myself things he did not give.
Ok, enough of the preaching. My lovely sister is driving here today so I expect for her to arrive before dinner time. I know we will have much fun together and I am looking forward to spending this time with her. My friends are keeping up with me and I them. This is good too. I was afraid my time would not permit very much chatting. I have not chatted so much but I have been able to share some thoughts.
I have a meeting earlier today which went very well. So far my trip has been very positive. Today is a little warmer here and no wetness. It is 17.7 Celsius which is about 64 F I think. I hope everything is good in your lives. Remember to do something good for yourself today.

Yesterday was very eventful. I was able to sleep late today and get caught up then off to a early meeting with Rafaelli which resulted in him buying me a good lunch at a nice caffe near his offices. There are some events that occurred last night which could make a great story but I have little time to write about them right now so I will keep you in want for more. It is good to be back in the place I call home and to see all of my many friends but I do miss my love at my new home across the ocean. She is the person that I think of most and the reason I live.
My beautiful sister comes to see me on Friday so I am excited most about that and the time I will get to spend with her. We are very close and it has been most difficult for me to leave her although I have been back here two times since I moved away.
It is difficult to describe the differences between the life I have in the states and the life here in Milano. But it is worlds apart. Some good and some bad in each I believe. This is fashion capitol of the world. Everyone is lovely all the time. But this is their focus in life. It is their profession too. In the states where I live, the focus is more personal, on relationships and family. I love those things and I love fashion too.
Well my friends, I am going to get myself clean and ready for a nice dinner with a lovely friend. I hope to chat with you soon.  

OMG, this was a long day. The flight was not bad but only long. I had to go to NYC first to connect then to Milano. It was more than 12 hours total. Then I was picked up by a friend at the aeroport, only my body clock is now a cuckoo clock. It is 3:30 PM and I arrive in the morning hours of the following day, is that crazy or what? Now as I lay in a familiar bed in my apartment I left behind more than a year ago, I need a long nap. I am very tired. I met some old friends and we had a lunch after getting settled in and a quick shower.  I think tonight I have dinner with friends and bit of a party for me, nothing grande, but fun and thoughtful yes. Some wine and some dancing then back in this bed for a good nights sleep. I hope to not sleep too late tomorrow.

I already miss you very much. Instead of chatting with my friends, I am writing the story of the day. I hope you keep up with me and do not forget me. The weather here is not bad. In the 50’s when I arrive and the low is the high 40’s I think tonight. I will answer a few emails then off to dream of beautiful things. ArrivederLa my friends.

It is very early this morning and I am about to get this tired body prepared for a long flight to my home. I will have a grande time I am sure of this and I know that I will get to see people that I have missed for being here but it will also be some sad times because my Kat will be left behind to work and we do not get to spend this trip together. Also my dogs will miss me because I am their mother and they need me. Who will run in mornings with beautiful Bear and whos panties will Choco get to chew up?
I will also miss the conversations I have with many of my friends on EP as I go through my days. I will still be alive and try to do a little blogging for you so my friends can keep up with their crazy Italian girlfriend and I will try to answer messages as I get them, only it may be at the times when you are sleeping. There is 7 hours difference so perhaps sometimes I will find you. 
It is a big trip for me, many things to do and people to meet. My schedule this week will not be awful but the two after this will be more busy with some travel around within maybe 250Km or so of my city. Maybe I squeeze the fun times all in this week so I can focus on my work after. Also, my sister Elison is meeting me on Friday to spend the rest of the time with me and travel as my companion with me. I very much look forward to seeing her and I hope that we are both able to have a dinner with our mamma one night while we are there together. 
Please wish for me a safe trip, I will be wearing the lucky yellow panties on both the travel days so I am doing my part to get the luck I need to keep the plane in the air. I hope it works for the plane and not the mile high entrance examination...lol. 
Saluto i miei amici belli e spero di verderti presto! Arrivederci!

If you have been keeping aware of my blogs you know I bought some wonderful new shoes last week. I have been dying to wear them. My lover comes home yesterday evening and surprises me with tickets to see the play "Wicked" and says to go and put on the shoes because she is taking me on a date. I was so excited. I got all dressed up and wore the shoes to dinner first then the play at 8:00 pm. The play was wonderful and we had a nice time until we were leaving. A woman leaving the play in my front was dragging a long shaw like thing for her warmth and it was dragging the floor. I accidentally stepped on it with a spike heel and when she move, my leg goes with her. I fall down and when I catch my fall, I sprain my wrist. My wife takes me for x-rays in case of break but it was only a sprain. But the makeup after was not so good because of the tears I lost in the process. It was sad because the young doctor was so handsome and sweet to me but I had no interest in anything but my pain and my comforting wife.
I am so lucky not to break something. Lucky for me, the shoes suffered no damages and the delicate slip dress was not damaged or pulled anywhere. I think no one got the panty show except for the pitiful lady who trapped me in her web. Is there a insurance person out there who can protect me until I get to Italy next week? I think I might deserve something sweet to eat today. Maybe some gellato? Who can bring me some?

 

First let me say that I must have limited contact in the next few weeks on EP because I will be traveling to Italy. My home there is 7 hours ahead of the time I have in the states and I will be very busy there. I trust that my friends will be better off for the lack of my attention so when I do return they can further enlighten me.

Today my thoughts are these: One thing I have clearly noticed in my experiences in Italy, in the States and on this and other social media fraternities is that persons born of both genders are very lucky in the brains department. I am not saying this of everyone because I did not benefit so much in the brains category but for my friends who may live as one gender and think as another, I have very much benefited from knowing each of them.

They have the courage and simplicities of great men and yet they also have the empathy and understandings of an experienced woman. I think that transsexuals will one day be admired as the envy of the academic world. Myself being one of the more needy girls, I seek the advice of my friends far too often and I am always touched emotionally by what my friends tell me.

My wish is that I too can touch you in this same profound way as you have touched me. You all know who you are. You are my love’s, my principessa’s, my goddesses of inspiration. It is you I come to see here, it is you I long to meet and know and share.

Un giorno, noi saremo I grandi amici!

This weekend was very busy as is usual with shopping on Saturday and our dinner out. Sunday, I decided to prepare Casoeula for my Kat which I make at home. Casoeula is a dish that is very common in Northern Italia when the weather turns to cooler temperatures. It is made with cabbage and pork meat and polenta and I choose Lamaione red wine for the cooking and the drinking after. I also find Taleggio cheese at the Whole Foods place which is a common soft cheese made near my home that I used with white corn and risotto with a little Saffron spice and it was very nice. My Kat was so happy with me and she loved my dishes.

Many people in America would be surprised to learn of the culinary tastes of Northern Italian’s and of how little pasta we consume. Most Milanese and Venetian dishes are prepared with risotto instead of pasta. The pasta’s are more popular in the south of Italia which many say they are a little rounder in the south due to this.

Now, for my shopping trip, I was happy to get some new winter clothes which I needed very much. I also bought some new shoes which I love very much and two new pairs of boots which I like to wear in the winter months. My new shoes are the Lanvin d’Orsay platform pumps in a rouge color suede. They are platform but it is hidden so one doesn’t see the platform part, so they look like 4.5” heels but wear like they are only 3.5” heels. I can barely wait to wear them and I am already begging Kat for a nice dinner this week so I can have great excuse to wear them. Of course, I had to have some clothes to match the shoes.

It is Monday and I hope that everyone has a wonderful time this week.

ArrivederLa, per ora.

 

I have not been such a good friend for the past two days have I? No blog yesterday either. The truth is that Kat has been home this week which has not been normal lately and I have been trying to spend more quality time with her. I also spent some time on the phone yesterday with some of my clients too and I really didn’t have a lot of time to devote to you my friends. So sorry for this.

Also, I want to say that many of us are walking the same path. We may be at different places along the path and there may be many forks in the path but we are walking in many of the same footsteps. For this, I say to you to please, please seek the advice and comfort of one of the great girls on this site before making any permanente decisions. I understand many things about who you are but I don’t have all of the same experiences and another girl may have been through those that I have not experienced. Between several of us, we can give you the information you may need to save you from making poor choices.

I know that you are struggling, I have my own struggles and ghosts in my closets too. Sometimes I too like to lean on the shoulders of my friends and I hope that I have made you feel comfortable to lean on my own when you need it. The most important thing I say to you today is for you not to confuse what is going on in your head with what is going on in your marriage. They are distinct issues and should be dealt with separately. Don’t think that you have to come out to your spouse because your marriage is ending. Deal with the marriage in a way that is appropriate for the continuation or separation of it, and then address your gender issues afterwards. This is unless the gender issues are what is causing the stress. Otherwise, the obstacles can seem insurmountable and new obstacles may be created by a tortured spouse.

I never had these marriage issues before. I know not the pressures or anxieties that many of you are going through with children and wifes at home. But I can listen and I can try to help you cope. But I do understand the societal pressures and stereotyping that happens when we choose this path for ourselves. I know this very well. I did not start off with the body and looks I have today, 18 years after stepping onto this path I am finally able to enjoy the person I always wanted to be without the looks and jeering of others. But there is more I want for myself too. And for this want, I seek the advice of others who have come before me like I ask you to do for yourself.

You can do this too, but it is not easy and it is not a path for sissies. Strong women do this only. So to be strong, you need us, your army. You are the General and we are your soldiers.

Che bella giornata!

 

What a beautiful day! Not because of the weather but because I have friends like you and a wonderful partner to share my life. I am learning to love me again…yes, can you believe it? This person who was not so faithful to her mamma’s teachings and not so respectful of herself enough to live the life of a respectful person has now started to forgive herself and move forward in this life.

I want for everyone to say to her or himself today, “I may not have been the person I wanted to be but I can try today to be better.” “I may not have been true to myself before, but today I will try harder.” “I may not have loved myself before but today, I am in love with me.”

If you are lucky to be the parent of a child who is gender variant, please love them as they are, not as you perceive them to be. Because they are full of love for you, just as you are.

Those are my thoughts this morning I share with you, my friends.

Sei il mio Tesoro. (you are my treasure.)

What a great weekend! We attended a wedding on Saturday for Kat’s cousin and we both got to dress up and strut our stuff. Kat wore a long pleated silk gown in green with lots of beading around the midriff and I wore a white bustier with black trim and black botanical embroidery stitched on it with a Black mini skirt and black heels. I purchased a great hat to wear last week and was quite excited to don it but on Saturday morning, I decided to do my hair  a different way and I liked the style so much that I decided on not wearing the hat. I found a style that Kate Hudson was wearing in a magazine and decided to try it. He curled my hair in loose curls then twisted several strands at a time pulling them back to the center and rear of my head. I loved it and didn’t want to cover it so I wore the hat on Sunday instead to a birthday party for another of Kat’s relatives.

The wedding was beautiful and we danced the night away at the reception until midnight. No naughty stories to tell, since it was a family event. It was just great fun and a great family to get to know even better. I tried something with my makeup that a girl at the Mac counter showed me last week too. I wore a lipstick in green that matched my wife’s dress, then applied a darker color, almost purple, over the green. I also used three shades of green eye shadow with the lighter color on my lid, the medium color above the crease then the darker color in the crease, then blended the three colors on the outer edge. The effect was dynamic but not over the top and we matched each other in a way that was meaningful to she and I.

My wife is home with me all week and I am so happy with that. No traveling for a whole week. I am making us a schedule to have our toes done this afternoon as a surprise since we were too busy this weekend to do this. So shhhh, don’t tell. I know it will be a fantastic week.

If you have been keeping up with these blogs of mine this week you will know that I have been entertaining my aunt from Italy. Her name is Sophia and she is a lovely woman, sister to my dear mama. Kat and I and Sophia had a great time yesterday and then a nice quiet early dinner so that we could make her plane on time. I will miss her so much but it will be nice to have some quiet moments with my friends. 
It has been a big week for me and lots of time for appreciation of how far I have come as a persona, a woman, and a partner. I want so much to be deserving of what has been given me and the life that has been so generously provided. I am also thankful for you, my many friends, who have and continue to support this work in progress. I have not always been so thoughtful and nice. There was a time in my life when all I could think about was myself and my own pleasures. I think that we all go through selfish times when we are young. This dream of mine to become a woman has had its bright moments and its not so bright moments and I own them all. 
At this memento in my life I want to focus more on being a woman more like the one who was just visiting me and my own mama. I want to emulate what I was taught by them. I want to embrace my own sexuality but I also want to honor the real meaning of what it is to be a woman. And for me, according to what was taught to me, I have not done so well. The display of my pictures was admittedly a cry out for attention, I thought that I could use my sexuality to endorse and make more legitimate my femininity. But I know now that it was a mistake. I want you to grow to love me as I have grown to love you. But not because I am pretty. Instead, I want you to respect my thoughts and my sentiments and what makes me real like all of you. I am a dreamer like many of you. I wanted what God did not provide for me. Science and the beauty industry has become my Gods and that my dear friends was a mistake. 
This mistake has nothing to do with what I have become because I know in my heart and mind that this is what I really am. The mistake was to place all of my energies and focus on growing my femininity and forgetting what was most important and that was to grow my intellect and my generousness and my kindness toward others. I missed the true essence of what it is to be a real woman. Instead focusing on the exterior, not the fibre of what real women are made from. 
This is my apology to each of you and to myself. I love you all very much and I truly hope that you too can find the beauty in yourself and in the persons around you. The one's that have supported this journey you are on and the ones who have not because the ones that have not supported you have done this out of love and a lack of understanding for you and your cause. 

My heart belongs to you, your numbre one supporter,

Me

 
 
Today is going to be a great day. My love is home and today is the last day for us to spend with Sophia. Tonight she is back on a plane to visit with mia madre bella (my beautiful mama). I hope that her she has enjoyed our times together this week as much as I have. I am so sorry for anyone who I may have neglected this week for lack of time but I know you understand. A quick run this morning to de-stress and a hot bath have reset my spirits for a new day.
Yesterday was an emotional one yes and there is no need to explain, it was just a simple wake up call to me to remind me of who I really am and who I want to be; what is most important in my life and what must be tucked away to help me cope with this awkward journey I am on – the same journey as many of you who read these crazy thoughts of mine. It was such an emotional evening for me with my incredible partner. I just could not take my eyes off of her.
She loves it when I speak to her in Italian although her skills are weak in that area so as we lay together last night in our sweet embrace, I said to her, “Come sei bella, Tu sei una stella…la mia stella. Cara mia, ti voglio bene. The words I say to her in English are, “How beautiful you are, you are a star…my star. My darling, I love you.” Yes, I’m crying again now as I write this because my life was so void of the things most important to us as we grow older before she rescued me.
To my special friend Bree, remember that this is a journey you are both taking. “Il nostro amore e la cosa piu importante nella mia vita, Tu sei un dono del cielo, quando  chiudo gli occhi vedo solo te.” Tell her this and do it every day. “Our love is the most important thing in my life, you are a gift from the heavens, when I close my eyes I only see you.” To my friend Elle, “Sei il mio angelo”, you are my angel.
Good morning everyone.

Last night was spent with Sophia and me going to dinner at one of my favorite restaurants in town, then back home for a couple glasses of wine on the veranda. Today and tomorrow are her last days with us so I want to make it as special as possible. I have an appointment for her today to have the royal treatment. She starts with a mani-pedi, then a 60 minute massage followed by an aroma therapy bath. I think she will thoroughly enjoy her day today and allow herself to be pampered and treated like the beautiful woman she is. Me on the other hand, I'm going to use that time to do a little shopping. My love will be home tonight and I want to find her something special to surprise her with to let her know how much I miss her when she is away. I crashed in bed early last night exhausted from a late night on Wednesday.

Last night was spent with Sophia and me going to dinner at one of my favorite restaurants in town, then back home for a couple glasses of wine on the veranda. Today and tomorrow are her last days with us so I want to make it as special as possible. I have an appointment for her today to have the royal treatment. She starts with a mani-pedi, then a 60 minute massage followed by an aroma therapy bath. I think she will thoroughly enjoy her day today and allow herself to be pampered and treated like the beautiful woman she is. Me on the other hand, I'm going to use that time to do a little shopping. My love will be home tonight and I want to find her something special to surprise her with to let her know how much I miss her when she is away. I crashed in bed early last night exhausted from a late night on Wednesday.